*SIGH*

-----

goddammit! i hate this pitchy patchy feelings i hav in my heart! 

the 'dub dub dub dub' sound wheneva i saw her face. 

the silly smile i make wheneva her name being mentioned.

how i tend to help wheneva i cld when she's around

the awkwardness i felt wheneva we bump into each other. 

dammit! 

am not ready for diz yet! i dun hav anythg in return! i'm a sore loser rite now!

dammit! 

i hate diz floaty kinda feelin. stick ur conscience to d ground u big freak! 

aaaa..i hate this. cuz i know i wont be able to get it, however strong i want it.

please dear god take this back. i'd appreciate d warm fuzzy feelin dat can turn me into sumthg more like an angel than a devil i am but i dun think its time for me yet. not unless u gave me a very good fortune, made me very reliable, successful, or at least got the package to make her the happiest woman in the world, then i'll accept diz beautiful gift.

i kno dat she got most of the qualities am looking for in a girl - funny, friendly, helpful, kind, strong hearted, nice voice, cute face, - ok stop. u making it worse. aaaa, get outta my head n my heart oredi! time to look for crucial turn off in a girl dat i cld possibly find on her.

'luv luv go away, come again another day'

p/s : dear followers, sori for this emo based post.will try to post more happy-feely story nxt time.

-----